Wednesday, August 11, 2010 @ 8:19 PM
Apologies for the previous post. I'm glad nobody
were busybody asking me what the heck has happened hehe.
Ok a proper post today. Before tht, I wnna announce something can?
I'm cool with Adilah, though only a part of it has settled.
I'm glad she had approached me and talk things out.
This incident has taught me a big great lesson on Trust.
Doesn't mean you THINK you own good friends, you can count
on them, trust them or even sacrifice for them. Beware of disloyalties.
I shouldnt elaborate more okkkkkkkkk :)
Today's the start of the month of Ramadhan. I'm aiming for a full month
of fasting. Always been Yok Yok-ing since small lol hahaha!
It's been 6 years without Mom, and I tend to get really emotional if
I were to break my fast alone. Yes, the first day of Ramadhan, alone.
It's ok for me as i've been eating & spending my time alone at home.
But it saddens me tht Mom isnt there to witness me, her daughter fasts
for a day. Wait, get this straight; throughout her life, she hasnt seen me
fast ok. She left when I was 7 yrs old & I wasn't yet to be taught of fasting.
Hah, staying strong is my middle name. Idk what had came to my
mind to start praying 5 times a day, but this is a sign. A sign from God to
show me to a better path. I got to say, i've been on the wrong path all this while.
And the current problems i'm facing now are tests from God. So it means
I should start praying and pray for good to come. Yeah :)
Lol I sound so... nostalgic.
Hahaha, its ok. Once in a while. Oh did I mention abt Dad?
Yeah, dad. For a sudden, I felt so bad for calling him Botak.
I've finally realised that what he has done to me, are for my own good.
Confiscating my phone due to contacting guys & obscenities, I find it valid.
Dear God, i've learnt my lesson well now. Though he had treated Mom
badly before she left, he's still my dad. I will bow down on my knees
infront of dad on Hari Raya and cry, begging for forgiveness I swear.
After reading these 5 paragraph, see any changes?
Yes, i'm a healthy changed person. For good! Haha.
Nobody could step onto my head anymore, i'm gna fight for my
rights no matter what happens. Hehe, i'm changed wooooo!
Start changin' for good & start lovin' yr life... before it's too late.
I mean it. Seriously *insert serious face*
Hahaha! I'm done. XOXO mwaaaah!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010 @ 11:34 PM
Hi. Before getting confused, this is so not an official blogpost ok.
It's 11.35pm and i'm still feelin' fresh. I get to know this later than
the actually day so here's my reply, Adilah.
Yes, Adilah ain't you? Great, so basically you mention about telling
you right in the face? So, blog, you sure right in my face? Oh ya,
I forgotten. You'll end up confused if you wanna talk right in my face cause
i'mma two-faced homosapien. Haha, ok2. Telling people around abt you?
Specific details please? Great, you've found out my true colours through
a person/people huh. Congratulation for being immature, being one-sided
listener. Babe, you have not known enough of me please so stop claiming you
know me as if you've known me for years or decades ok. Getting to know me
is so not from one's mouth. One really good example of a an immature act.
Calling me a bitch in your 7th august blog post won't do any good to you either.
Why didnt you call me, better enough meet me & call me a bitch straight
to my face? Lol you could go online & ask me frankly, you're out of yr mind.
Hah, the more I type, the more furious I am now really.
I don't give a shit whether tmr i'm fasting & I can't get mad or start a fight
something like tht, the fact is I really despise being called a bitch/two-faced.
Worst enough if you don't even know me for atleast a year!
I know this post was published quite late for you to read, but I hope you're
ready for our last minute meet up real soon. 'Cause two-faced bitch will get on
your nerves for real if you don't, really.
No matter how bloody furious I am now & how much I thought
you deserved to be called a bitch to me now, I refrain from using
it cause there's a proper word to describe you; Bimbo.
Ok i'm done, goodnight!
Tuesday, August 3, 2010 @ 9:12 PM
Hehehe, sorry Blogger I just loveeeee
Tumblr ♥
Hiiiiiiiiii. Ok see i'm updating. Yesssss because i'm so free now.
Time check, 9:15pm on 3rd August.
I gotta say i've been feeling
really really down these days. I've been really really disappointed.
To myself especially. I miss Ira Wahyuni, the one who will always
laugh for no reason, struck by sudden hyperness, the Miss Always Smile~
Saaaaaap, where have you been bby? Lol, she has been leaving among the
double-faces & really really need a break. What happen? Hehe.
Well, i'd always count on my best friends, the ones I believed
that will always be there for me no matter what happens. Lol dopes,
I was wrong. Currently, it's too chaotic, emotionally. I don't wna
waste my time, sitting & start thinking seriously about it. Really.
Surprisingly, those friends that i've been ignoring since, idk when,
were my true friends. I know right, I was so bad to them ); At least
they are here to lend a listening ear to me sincerely! In other words or
just to summarize this paragraph, everybody changes. Mine, to worse.
I've learnt not to trust people easily, pouring your hopes on them,
'jangan kasi muka, nanti naik atas kepala' & stop giving in please Ira oh god.
Yes there are still my friends & I bet they do not even have a clue about
this shit that i've been feeling. I'll always see a half-empty glass of water,
so don't try to cheer me up or even make me feel better. I'm better off alone.
Ok, i've been deleting questions from Formspring, asking me
what happen on my previous blog post yada yada things like that.
I refused to answer because it seems personal to me & I just gotta
make somebody feel 'terasa' on that particular tumblr post of mine.
Yes, you gotta be evil sometimes but not everytime. Hey but the person very
evil ler, so why not teach that particular person a lesson of embarrassment.
That's another problem i'm facing. You know, I really despise sweet talkers.
Ok, it started when I was.. *counting* 12 years old. Yesh, my very first lover~
He started off shoooo sweet. Suddenly abt 3-4 months later I got to know
that he's been 'using' me. Impressing the shit outta me like that. So that was
when I had my first heart break. I know rightttttt ): I was traumatized then.
Sekali kena again by another guy! Then again! Agaiiiiiiiin! & now, please,
i'll make sure this will be the last heartbreak so yes a heartbreak again.
Lol i'm getting sick of this. The last two 'again' was really am Love.
The first two was puppy mwahmwah lup~ Still counted cause stilllllll
heartbreaks hehehe. Alright enough of this, I don't wna drag the situation.
*scrolls up* SIAO SO LONGGGGGG!
I feel like continuing but 'the-compassion-towards-readers' permits.
Gosh, even I do not want to read such a long post pfft. Haha!
Thank you, monthly bleeds for helping my EQ to express
everythaaaang (not that much, too personal) here.
I'll be back with another post real soon don't worry.
Meanwhile, Duttyfall.tumblr will always be updated~
mmmmmwah! ♥
Sunday, August 1, 2010 @ 11:21 AM
(:
Kalau terasa, tu kau punya pasal. Bye.