Hiiiiiiiiii. Ok see i'm updating. Yesssss because i'm so free now.

Time check, 9:15pm on 3rd August.

I gotta say i've been feeling

really really down these days. I've been really really disappointed.

To myself especially. I miss Ira Wahyuni, the one who will always

laugh for no reason, struck by sudden hyperness, the Miss Always Smile~

Saaaaaap, where have you been bby? Lol, she has been leaving among the

double-faces & really really need a break. What happen? Hehe.

Well, i'd always count on my best friends, the ones I believed

that will always be there for me no matter what happens. Lol dopes,

I was wrong. Currently, it's too chaotic, emotionally. I don't wna

waste my time, sitting & start thinking seriously about it. Really.

Surprisingly, those friends that i've been ignoring since, idk when,

were my true friends. I know right, I was so bad to them ); At least

they are here to lend a listening ear to me sincerely! In other words or

just to summarize this paragraph, everybody changes. Mine, to worse.

I've learnt not to trust people easily, pouring your hopes on them,

'jangan kasi muka, nanti naik atas kepala' & stop giving in please Ira oh god.

Yes there are still my friends & I bet they do not even have a clue about

this shit that i've been feeling. I'll always see a half-empty glass of water,

so don't try to cheer me up or even make me feel better. I'm better off alone.

Ok, i've been deleting questions from Formspring, asking me

what happen on my previous blog post yada yada things like that.

I refused to answer because it seems personal to me & I just gotta

make somebody feel 'terasa' on that particular tumblr post of mine.

Yes, you gotta be evil sometimes but not everytime. Hey but the person very

evil ler, so why not teach that particular person a lesson of embarrassment.

That's another problem i'm facing. You know, I really despise sweet talkers.

Ok, it started when I was.. *counting* 12 years old. Yesh, my very first lover~

He started off shoooo sweet. Suddenly abt 3-4 months later I got to know

that he's been 'using' me. Impressing the shit outta me like that. So that was

when I had my first heart break. I know rightttttt ): I was traumatized then.

Sekali kena again by another guy! Then again! Agaiiiiiiiin! & now, please,

i'll make sure this will be the last heartbreak so yes a heartbreak again.

Lol i'm getting sick of this. The last two 'again' was really am Love.

The first two was puppy mwahmwah lup~ Still counted cause stilllllll

heartbreaks hehehe. Alright enough of this, I don't wna drag the situation.

*scrolls up* SIAO SO LONGGGGGG!

I feel like continuing but 'the-compassion-towards-readers' permits.

Gosh, even I do not want to read such a long post pfft. Haha!

Thank you, monthly bleeds for helping my EQ to express

everythaaaang (not that much, too personal) here.

I'll be back with another post real soon don't worry.

Meanwhile, Duttyfall.tumblr will always be updated~

mmmmmwah! ♥